Roses are .....Red, Yellow, White & Pink

Roses help to win the girl? Well it did alright for me.

In preparation for my date last night I went back over her profile and the chat we had on the phone the other night. She seemed to be a pretty good match, and not just from the quick poll they do on dating sites either. We seemed to have a good repoire going from the short chat.

With that in mind I thought to myself, what if this all goes on to something. Yes this particular date. Others I would generally not of thought twice to just roll up and see if they are ok. But yesterday I got to thinking wouldn't it be nice to think some where down the track that she would remember I gave her flowers on our first date.

As I had a good opportunity in the afternoon I popped in to "Alyssiums On Pirie" at 63 Pirie St Adelaide SA 5000 ph: (08) 8223 4033. Basically on the corner of Pirie and Gawler Place, Adelaide.

There I had a good selection of individual coloured roses to make up a bunch.
They made it all up for me and it looked the treat. So much so the girls in the office were almost in jealousy. Well get in lines girls, there's seven nights in a week.

Yes I work in Adelaide, and as it turns out so does my date. Poor girl has to catch the bus in from down south each day and endure SA's lovely public transport system.

We caught up at Bonjourno's at O'Holloran Hill for a drink and then coffee back to her place, which conveniently was closeby. The rest of the night I'll not bother with the details. What goes on tour stays on tour as they say.

So where to next? Well the boy turns 48 on Sunday so I'm hoping she will join my sons and I for dinner back to Bonjournos. And then she's invited to her brothers 60th the next weekend.

In the meantime smilies and kisses are coming in and I'll have to deal with those on a case by case basis. It never rains it pours.

Riker out...

Oh my heart yearns

Well I slept a lot better last night resigned to the fact that I'm better off without Sharon.

As I've mentioned previously there are a number arguments not to be involved with her and it is she who is missing out on my love and devotion. The baggage just makes sense to steer clear.

And to improve my spirits someone has paid me a compliment I've never had before; the oral sex is the best they've ever had! So Sharon, dahhhhh.

So where to now? Well I've already lined up a date for tomorrow night and she has already invited me to coffee at her place. After only an hour or so chatting to her on the phone....might be in yet, and another late night. Yes never a quickie with me. Satisfaction gauranteed to her. And oh the squeels. At least she'll have to change the wet sheets after that, and I don't mean from a little dribble if you get my drift.

The dating sites seemed pretty popular Monday night with many logging on before tea and then afterwards. Maybe they're trying to organise their social life for next weekend...well there's hope isn't there....plenty of fish in the sea....trouble is I like the anchovy's.

Riker out

Bye Bye Love Hello......Online Dating

Here I sit broken hearted.

Sharon has dumped me with "It's Me, Not You".

My date has dumped me with "It's Me, Not You".

Sharon has it turns out when you look at her realistically, got some mean baggage:- settlement issues with her ex, eldest trying o/d'ing, girlie friends no doubt appealing to her for the single life and bars are so much more fun than true love, just to just jump in the sack whenever. No doubt she has already done that and cheated on me before on more than 1 occassion whilst we were going out. So good riddance. Well not before I've had the chance to appeal my case as I love her so. But eh, she won't even talk to me on the phone let alone face to face. She can't face responsibilities for anything. Here's me trying to be bolder in myself and get to issues and women are supersonic to evade them.

I say women in general as my date has done just about the same thing, sms me with a piss off routine; I'm not ready for anyone right now and too emotional blah blah blah. Dribble.

So what have I to do. Well as they say; get right on back up there. Look out dating sites here comes someone with repressed discontent for the female species. They want a root and nothing else well so be it. I'll start getting STD tests done regularly, only for my satisfaction mind you.

And besides just about all issues in relationships I see now are borne from the female id. Daddy's little princess.....too bad she's grown old and got baggy tits and needs a paper bag and a licence to walk out in public.

Ah so cynical...maybe but prove me otherwise and I might have a change of heart.

Riker out....

Arrrrgh I need to fuck something.
Al Swearengen, Deadwood

Love? What's Love got to do with it . . . .

My lovelife lies is causing me total stress at the moment. Why? Well the other night after I had previously set up profiles in various online dating sites to see?? if Sharon was playing up or certainly intending to, guess what? There she was online in RSVP.com.au with a very very recent photo.

It hurt. It very much hurt. I was not a happy chappy.

I had seen her profiles in various stages of the times we were together but thought niavely things are more in my favour.

So what happened you ask? Well I sms her to let her know I've sent email with the profile.
She said not online yet dah...the site had her as online....dahh not a blonde is she.
So to take the short story she basically won't talk to me about it until the weekend and then I told her to face to face as I at least deserve that after 9 months of knowing each other so we'll see.

To her credit she has removed all the profiles, and that at least has lessened my blown out anxiety.

1. She hasn't told me to piss off yet so I may be in with a hope yet.
2. She has taken her profiles down, maybe seen the error of her ways
3. May be shy, but wants to sort things out as I WILL forgive her
4. She has accepted the dozen red roses I sent yesterday as a gesture to a happy reunion.
5. I Love her very much.
6. She was stressed out the other night as I unknowingly forgot she had property settlement in court yesterday and would've been stressed as it was. However that doesn't excuse her from trying the profiles and showing off to her girlfriend whilst she couldn't have been too stressed if she was having the time of her life at my expense.
7. I just need to know one way or the other what is happening....easier said as I pine for her and think of her so much day in day out and I miss her so.
8. I feel my love for her is more true than I've ever felt for someone.

Riker out....for now

Go Aussie

Well I spent a good part of the evening waiting the Australia vs. Japan World Cup game and managed to catch the first half. It was 1-0 to Japan by half time and even that was a very doubtful goal, mostly by the interference to the goalie Schwarcer but from my view a very close offside even if it came to the photo.

Well alls well as they ended up beating Japan 3-1. Yeah. But mind you I was up around 2:30 am as I couldn't sleep for one thing or another so I got up to check the score online.

The other reason I couldn't get to sleep was thinking over in my mind of the girl I liked so much and in deed felt may however turn good for me was in fact leaving me. And the worse of it is for no given reason, well not yet anyway. And I may never get that from her as she seems to be the sort to hope for our relationship to simply drop out of the universe of life never to have any trace or semblance ever having taken place.

After 9 months I think I deserve some explanation so I shall see what comes along. But realistically I should accept it will NEVER happen. Gone to the ether of a black hole like the last nine months of my life which I can never get back.

You see when I met Sharon I discounted a couple of other very attractive prospects of relationships and chose her above them all. What a sucker. My generosity and kindness fell to her and her situation, helping her with support and comfort in her hours of darkness through divorce, settlement and personal issues.

She always had a lot going on and our time together was predomantly centred around her and her woes, not much about me. I just fitted into her life not vice versa. I was patient to her life and contstraints. Busy with kids, her ex giving her strife over various and numerous issues leading to mental anguish.

Following on with her dallying with online sites I actually caught her out when she logged into one I'd only just registered with and she had only just logged out of it by minutes before my log in to it. So much for having time and place to talk or message me from time to time. So that's it she has always from the outset been keeping me on a lease for her sole benefit and forget about what steve cares, he's only there to be used up to the max.

Woe, wait a minute. I'm going on and on here for someone that is no longer in my life. Get on with it Steve...get a life.

To that end I went to Dad's yesterday afternoon for some solice and guidance both realistic and philisophical. It did me good to do that as I feel it drew a line in the sand to define the past and start afresh.

Today I'll put thoughts down on paper to sort out my life and a lot of aspects that I've been totally retisant to look at let alone manage like I should in a responsible manner.
Lifestyle, finance, health, happiness, interests, goals, employment/career, etc etc.

I'll post an update as life goes on.


Riker out

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Where to now my friends

Well it's been 10 days since I've heard anything from her so I guess I'm out of favour and she's transferred her love to someone else and doesn't know how to tell me. The simple truth would be good instead of farting around with people.

So to that end I've jumped into the realms of Online Dating.

So far so good. I've registered on 2 sites and had good response on one of them although it is hard to time everything right as we have busy lives of our own.

If you seem to be online at the same time well luck is with you. Otherwise we seem to troll the names and photos each night when the town is ready to sleep, and alas we know full well we should be in the same motion.

What is it about relationships? We all seem to need them. Some for the fun of getting out and about, maybe others just to get their jollies every so often.

Online sites have the appeal to be there 24/7 and disassociate us from the initial face to face thing. But to me and no doubt a lot of people it's the issue of not having the medium and time/place to facilitate it to just happen.

So you get started exchanging short notes to each other as tentative musings aboout yourself and build them up on expectations as the days go by. For me it is high with expectations as you invest a lot of time and a few dollars into it all that distracts you from some normal routines in life eg. up late at night seeing if someone is online.

A random thought here is how do you find and believe love is true? You finally meet but you know or at least believe he/she has been on the "meat market" now for a while, especially if you go back to when you had your first love as a teenager. In the recent past though you and they have been having a bit of fun whether it leads to sex, usually as you/they want to tag that fish. It's then up to you there and then whether to release it straight away or dangle it in a bucket for a while to see if you can tame the creature.

Whilst most of the women say they don't want it on the first date research and friends seem to assert this to be a falsehood. In fact most guys, well the honest ones are happy to see where things go .

Well enough of that, for now.

Half way through the long weekend and finally the weather looks towards a downturn and probably more homebound. Maybe I'll get the housework done yet. See I'm distracted from some basic routine and thinking of her who ever she is or may be to come into my life.
It's nice to be on your own but in all I would like to have some regularity to be with and share lives with someone who can be sincere and honest to trust and hopefully love...yes even true love. I'm a bit optomistic at this stage!

When we sit around to watch a movie or like to go out for dinner we pine for that person. At the moment the best and I don't mean any disrespect but Mal and I have to go and get Indian takeaway to share each others company and friendship.

Mal, yes what a guy. Lucky bastard has found a young lady in her late thirties who just wants to use his body to try and fulfill her sexual conquests lately. Poor Mal has so far come out with a stiff neck from the horizontal gymnastics. Lucky bastard.

So the Crows have won another game and finally beat the Lions at the Gabba. Hopes are there to be a serious contender for the flag at the end of the year.

The clouds are coming over here now so we may get some light rain to keep us of the roads and indoors for a while.

Last musing for now:
When we go to work and Friday comes around I find it depressing to come home to a solitude existence and no one there to ease the pain.

May the force be with you

Riker out.

June Long Weekend

Yes it's Friday arvo, sitting at work waiting for the clock to run down so I can go home and listen to another SACD before Hogan's Heros comes on Foxtel.

I mention SACD as I bought a Pioneer DVD player last weekend with SACD facility. I've long had Pink Floyd's Dark Side of the Moon on SACD when it was released in 2003 to hear the improved stereo at the time. And at that time there was never any chance of forking out huge bucks to listen to the one disc. Since then DVD-A has been around with DTS output so that quenched the pangs of music listening desire for a while. Then I was at a mates place on Saturday night and low and behold he had the grace to give me a sample of what I was missing out on not having SACD player.

So off I trot to JB-HiFi @ Marion and pick up a Pioneer DV-868A and haven't looked back at all.

So far this week I've picked up:

Dire Straits Brothers In Arms.....highly recommend this one
Jeff Wayne's War of the Worlds....another recommendation
Peter Gabriel's UP
Elton John's Yellow Brick Road

The last 2 are pretty good and do justice for the extra cost for SACD.

Besides that I've curtailed my download on my ADSL2+ as I have got a few days left before it resets. I may need a bit to get a couple of shows that are starting up their new series' in the states this week....must be ratings over there.

In the meantime I've hauled down a heap of music this month including Gary Moore, Leningrad Cowboys, George Benson, Robin Trower, Crosby & Nash, Godley & Creme etc..

I haven't had to worry too much about movies as my son has been able to get some for me.
MI3 wasn't too bad in quality even for the camera in cinema aspect
Over The Hedge was good in all sense
Neil Young's Heart of Gold was in DVD quality DivX and worth the notion to buy it when it comes out in the shop.
V for Vendetta was another good film as was Lucky Number Slevins.

Anyway nearly home time so bid you adieu...

Riker out