Go Aussie
Well I spent a good part of the evening waiting the Australia vs. Japan World Cup game and managed to catch the first half. It was 1-0 to Japan by half time and even that was a very doubtful goal, mostly by the interference to the goalie Schwarcer but from my view a very close offside even if it came to the photo.
Well alls well as they ended up beating Japan 3-1. Yeah. But mind you I was up around 2:30 am as I couldn't sleep for one thing or another so I got up to check the score online.
The other reason I couldn't get to sleep was thinking over in my mind of the girl I liked so much and in deed felt may however turn good for me was in fact leaving me. And the worse of it is for no given reason, well not yet anyway. And I may never get that from her as she seems to be the sort to hope for our relationship to simply drop out of the universe of life never to have any trace or semblance ever having taken place.
After 9 months I think I deserve some explanation so I shall see what comes along. But realistically I should accept it will NEVER happen. Gone to the ether of a black hole like the last nine months of my life which I can never get back.
You see when I met Sharon I discounted a couple of other very attractive prospects of relationships and chose her above them all. What a sucker. My generosity and kindness fell to her and her situation, helping her with support and comfort in her hours of darkness through divorce, settlement and personal issues.
She always had a lot going on and our time together was predomantly centred around her and her woes, not much about me. I just fitted into her life not vice versa. I was patient to her life and contstraints. Busy with kids, her ex giving her strife over various and numerous issues leading to mental anguish.
Following on with her dallying with online sites I actually caught her out when she logged into one I'd only just registered with and she had only just logged out of it by minutes before my log in to it. So much for having time and place to talk or message me from time to time. So that's it she has always from the outset been keeping me on a lease for her sole benefit and forget about what steve cares, he's only there to be used up to the max.
Woe, wait a minute. I'm going on and on here for someone that is no longer in my life. Get on with it Steve...get a life.
To that end I went to Dad's yesterday afternoon for some solice and guidance both realistic and philisophical. It did me good to do that as I feel it drew a line in the sand to define the past and start afresh.
Today I'll put thoughts down on paper to sort out my life and a lot of aspects that I've been totally retisant to look at let alone manage like I should in a responsible manner.
Lifestyle, finance, health, happiness, interests, goals, employment/career, etc etc.
I'll post an update as life goes on.
Riker out
Well alls well as they ended up beating Japan 3-1. Yeah. But mind you I was up around 2:30 am as I couldn't sleep for one thing or another so I got up to check the score online.
The other reason I couldn't get to sleep was thinking over in my mind of the girl I liked so much and in deed felt may however turn good for me was in fact leaving me. And the worse of it is for no given reason, well not yet anyway. And I may never get that from her as she seems to be the sort to hope for our relationship to simply drop out of the universe of life never to have any trace or semblance ever having taken place.
After 9 months I think I deserve some explanation so I shall see what comes along. But realistically I should accept it will NEVER happen. Gone to the ether of a black hole like the last nine months of my life which I can never get back.
You see when I met Sharon I discounted a couple of other very attractive prospects of relationships and chose her above them all. What a sucker. My generosity and kindness fell to her and her situation, helping her with support and comfort in her hours of darkness through divorce, settlement and personal issues.
She always had a lot going on and our time together was predomantly centred around her and her woes, not much about me. I just fitted into her life not vice versa. I was patient to her life and contstraints. Busy with kids, her ex giving her strife over various and numerous issues leading to mental anguish.
Following on with her dallying with online sites I actually caught her out when she logged into one I'd only just registered with and she had only just logged out of it by minutes before my log in to it. So much for having time and place to talk or message me from time to time. So that's it she has always from the outset been keeping me on a lease for her sole benefit and forget about what steve cares, he's only there to be used up to the max.
Woe, wait a minute. I'm going on and on here for someone that is no longer in my life. Get on with it Steve...get a life.
To that end I went to Dad's yesterday afternoon for some solice and guidance both realistic and philisophical. It did me good to do that as I feel it drew a line in the sand to define the past and start afresh.
Today I'll put thoughts down on paper to sort out my life and a lot of aspects that I've been totally retisant to look at let alone manage like I should in a responsible manner.
Lifestyle, finance, health, happiness, interests, goals, employment/career, etc etc.
I'll post an update as life goes on.
Riker out
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